Growing Pains

My poor baby boy is growing again.

Of course he has been growing up a lot in very visible ways lately. He holds his head up like a pro most of the time, he can push up pretty far when laying on his tummy, he's starting to hold toys and kind of play with them, he "talks" and coos and babbles all the time...

The growing I'm talking about is the kind that you don't notice until it's happened. He is getting bigger every day! But the last couple days he has been going through a spurt it seems. Wyatt is just crabby non stop and all he wants to do is eat and sleep. Now I know a lot of adults want to do nothing but eat and sleep too, but for him this is not the norm. Wy has always liked to explore, to soak up everything he can see. Instead of being the alert happy boy he has become he is clingy and irritable.

I hate seeing him like this. I wish there was something I could do to help ease the pain of growing a couple inches every month. He had a full on melt down the other night. I put him to be like normal and listened to him cry a little bit just like every night. About an hour later though he started screaming again. And it wasn't the "get back here cause I'm pissed I have to go to bed" crying like usual. No this was full on distress screaming. I went back up to his room to give him is pacifier back in the hopes that it would stop the crying. Instead he screamed louder when he saw me! He was thrashing and seemed to be in a panic. Poor baby didn't even stop crying when I picked him up. I actually had to swaddle him for the first time in about a month. Wyatt has gotten quite good at self-calming and doesn't need to be swaddled for the most part. But he was so worked up that even after the burrito I had to walk back and forth in his room shushing in his ear for almost 10min before he calmed down and started to doze off. He slept peacefully until about 5am when he woke up screaming again. He was starving and was eating so fast he almost choked himself.

I can just tell he doesn't feel good, that he hurts and it's making him upset. And I wish I could make it better, even though I know this is just one of many times I won't be able to help make something in his life better. I know already this is going to be one of the hardest parts of being a parent. I am not always going to be able to fix things or make him feel better. He has to grow and learn and discover on his own like I did! Like I am still doing. All I can do at times is let him know I am here for him and that I love him. So I will spend the next couple days before I head back to work cuddling him and playing with him and giving him as much comfort as I can while he keeps growing up into a little boy!